I go through the occasional "I NEED TO PURGE!!" phases. More often than not, I feel *great* immediately afterward. Then, weeks, even months, later I regret it.
How many things have I given away, regifted, or just thrown out that I later realized, "Damn...I wish I still had that..." Too many to count, I can assure you.
I never seem to remember the regret when I hit my "MUST PURGE!!" cycle.
Several weeks ago, I went through and deleted nearly all of the posts on this blog. I wanted a fresh start, a sort of symbolic ctl-alt-del on my life. Clearly the universe had other plans. Many of the posts that I *thought* I had deleted still remain (which caught me by no little surprise when I noticed it!).
The lesson that the Universe is trying to teach me is, I think, that we cannot escape our past, no matter how far we run, how deep we hide, how much we turn away. It always comes back. Sometimes for better. Sometimes not.
Maybe this time I'll learn and embrace that lesson.
I have been meaning to write you. I hope you are well. Are you coming up any time soon? I miss you!
ReplyDeleteP.S. I have been struggling to comment on your blog since you ahve been back. Maybe something you did in your purge helped shake the comments portion back into working order. ;)
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