I"m tired

I have no idea what's my deal lately, but personal change and challenge is tough!

So, as usual, I find myself with a to-do list that is a million projects long. Or, at least it seems like it is. I'm trying to take it one day at a time, but I am realizing there are so many things that I want/need to do, and since I absolutely suck at time management, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed.

My biggest to-do that I am wrestling with conquoring is going to the gym. I joined a couple of months ago, on the suggestion/harrassment of a friend. I have been trying to go at least 4 days a week since that time, with reasonable success. Considering my ass hasn't been in a gym in about 15 years, I think I'm actually doing pretty well. When I first started I couldn't even barely lift the lightest of weight. Now, I'm doing... well, better. I look around at all those ripped gym bodies and realize I'm far from where they are. But I am trying to feel good about the minor successes I've had (actually GOING, increasing the amount I am able to do, noticing how things don't jiggle like they used to, even though they still jiggle...). My goal for the end of the summer is to no longer have my ass hanging down to the back of my knees. It would be nice to have a body that people look at and say, "Oooooh!!" instead of "Ewwwww!" I realize I'm not going to have the type of body one would want to climb like a mountain, but I just want to look reasonably better for where I'm at in life.

I have a billion other to-dos in the form of various articles and curricula that I want to write. So what am I doing about it? Considering you're reading this, it should be clear where my energies are currently focused. I need to stop whinning and start being more productive. On the bright side, another little success, is that I got a pretty good start on one of the articles I wanted to write for my professional organization's publication. Yay, me!

Ok. Rant complete. I'm off to have a healthy lunch (more rabbit food), and chill a bit before I haul my butt to the gym. Wish me luck!